isn't it funny that the things about yourself you spend a lifetime trying to change are the exact things you end up loving once you grow up. it's not about vanity, people, it's about loving yourself. and one step further - it's about honesty. honestly befriending yourself and realizing that you are a person you would want to have around. finally, after all of these years, i've stopped rejecting nickolas for who he isn't, and started liking him for who he is. it's because of that honesty (and a whole bunch of love from my friends) that nickolas would have ever been able to have become nicky. thats my testament right now. and it's true.